Father christmas is nearly here

Gearing up for our 1st xmas as a little family, pressies are all wrapped kept finding pressies for mummy so she's doing ok.

It was Rich's funeral last week, I managed to hold it together long enough to say my words still can't quite believe he's gone and a few things catch me out now and again mainly when I think about Sam and the kids. Think the words came out ok stumbled and mumbled a bit but hope i did the big fella some justice. Jack was in his snowman suit on the way down but we tried out the new chair in the car and he got to sleep straight away only woke up to throw up all over himself.

Changed him then awaiting the car outside the place he screeched alot and Sue had to take him outside as the service started as he screeched some more. Had a slight accident in the morning and shaved all my hair off but couldn't let him go having less hair than me somehow it felt right.

Do afterwards was good some great photos of him and Jack was a star with the ladies.

Finished work this week nice to have a few days off before xmas, think we're all ready with food and everything.

Jacks been a bit crazy the last couple of days screeching and flapping his arms and legs about alot but seems alot happier even though his still got a bit of a rattley cough

All down with colds

Why oh why can't people not infect other people, we've all come down with colds me first then Jack and Mummy. Jack was up most of the night screaming mum took most of the night shift I brought him down stairs so she could try and catch a bit around 4am finally put him in the carrier but when finally went off to sleep listening to the advent tree taking him back and tried to put him down but he woke up again. Then after another feed sleep with us.

Next night wasn't too bad, we had the neighbours over for drinks and a mince pie Jack wasn't too bad that night but the morning lots of screaming and wimpering. A cough and a temperature and liked to fall asleep on my shoulder which he hasn't done for a bit. After some more early hours involving propping on a lot of pillows on the sofa, Sue took him to the docs the next morning where he threw up on her in the waiting room.

Had the facias etc done on the house 

Stop the clocks...

Some awful awful news today. My uni pal best buddy, the man I was best man for, a kindred spirit, an absolutely brilliant bloke, my friend, has died.

My friend Rich lost his battle with cancer I just can't take it in I'm numb. He was (uh argh was) dianosed towards the start of the year and the treatments one by one didn't work but he was upbeat till the end and was always fighting it just wish there was another day to joke with him I'm so glad my boy got to meet his uncle Rich even if he will not get to know he's great sense of humour and honour. And thoughts turn to Sam Bex and Harry oh I can't imagine the pain.

Harry I promise I'll tell you all the stories about your dad if you want to hear them later on.

It hurts so much. I'll miss you wingman. so fucking not fair